3/12
march 5th
lol i was talking to kevin on fb chat and we were talking about the whole tim situation and idk how it happened but i pretty much got him to tell me that he still has feelings for me i mean he didn’t directly say it but he was saying everything else to avoid saying it and it just made me lol so much oh man i love that kid idec
march 2nd
tim pretty much doesn’t want me in his life and doesn’t want to talk to me anymore to spare him the ~heartache and to avoid whatever the fuck he felt during his senior year with stacey and i’m so ungodly angry and hurt over this like i didn’t do anything i shouldn’t be punished for how he handles things idek i considered him a good friend but the fact that he would rather just leave me out in the cold than try to work on his emotions or w/e just really hurts me
it sucks because i just feel like ever since i’ve been involved with this group of friends i’ve just either created drama somehow or been involved in it this is the worst I JUST WANT TO BE A PART OF A NORMAL GROUP OF FRIENDS GOD DAMMIT
feb 28th
tim and i haven’t talked at all today and it makes me really sad :{ ugh why does he have to stop talking to me to get over his crush on me WHY DID HE EVEN HAVE TO GET A CRUSH ON ME this always happens, i’ll talk to someone and then they’ll get a crush on me and it’s someone i’m really good friends with but then we have a talk about our feelings and usually they don’t agree and then we decide to still be friends but we just stop talking not that this is exactly the same but still
i think i did pretty well on my science midterm so that’s good
i’ve been extremely tired the entire day idk why but now i’m finishing up my econ outline FINALLY and then tomorrow i’m going to work to my writing paper
god i can’t wait for this week to be over then all of this stress of hw will go away but then another stress wave will hit me from different hw assignment womp
feb 27th
i feel like kevin’s really jealous rn lol i posted a vid on tims wall and 2 minutes after that kevin posted on my wall and commented on the vid that i posted and then later fb chatted me idk i think he’s subconsciously jealous tbh
tim told me of his crush for me and we talked that all out i just told him to not let it get any bigger bc idk what i’m feeling tbh and idk when i will ugh i hate lyfe sometimes
feb 26th
alicia was being a colossal bitch to me the entire day so i didn’t say one word to her fuck dat bitch tbh
robert downey jr makes me cry
feb 25th
it’s decided that i do like tim womp idk what to do tbh just two nights ago i told kevin that tim and i weren’t a thing and that i didn’t like him
idk i just kind of want to know kevins thoughts on all of this like i know he’s always worried about my feelings but like what if he still has feelings that need to be considered omg idek and i guess i’m also really hesitant on the whole time thing because this is so pathetic but i guess i’m kind of hoping that kevin asks me to his prom LOL oh god i am so stupid i know he’s not going to and idek why i want him to ask me ugh i obviously still have feelings for kevin but theyre not like at the surface anymore ig they’re buried again or at least really diluted womp
i’m actually getting really sick of myself and this whole thing
i have so much homework to do tomorrow omg i’m going to cry
